Maitland Ward talks about sexuality and leaves porn acting

Maitland Ward talks about sexuality and leaves porn acting

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At 45, Maitland Ward doesn’t apologize for “everything” in his life.

“I don’t have any remorse about sex…but I think it’s really me and all,” she tells Yahoo Life. “When I was young, I apologized for so many years. I will never apologize again.”

The actress, who started her career The bold and the beautiful before joining the cast of Boy Meets the World as Rachel in 1998, she has since left Hollywood in favor of a career in pornography. That journey – which she chronicles in her upcoming book Rated X: How Porn Freed Me From Hollywoodwhich comes out September 6 – was one of taking back control of her sexuality.

“I was always seen, in my opinion, as the most provocative – people were fascinated by my long legs, and that I’m so tall and I have red hair and, and it was like that almost did everything right,” Ward says of her experiences on TV sets, noting that some of what she experienced would not be “acceptable” today. “People would come up and pat her ass or pinch her or say, ‘Oh, look how hot you are. Look at your boobs’.”

What was particularly challenging, shares Ward, was that she was expected to be “a sexualized being” to other people, but not really expected to enjoy her sexuality. She was instructed to be virginal and chaste, but also to appeal to male viewers.

“If I were at a show, how Boy Meets the World, I could be sexy. I could wear a sheet with little feathers in nude pictures I had for my boyfriend – that’s fine,” she says, of a plot point in an episode of the ABC sitcom, in which her character’s friends share a risqué photo. her as a joke. “If I ever wore something like that, or did something suggestive like that in real life, Disney, the producers and Hollywood would have fallen on me. Especially the producer, Michael Jacobs – he was very adamant about me being chaste and the good girl.”

At the time, Ward says stars like Britney Spears and Jessica Simpson were some of Hollywood’s biggest sex symbols, but they were also known for their virginity.

“It was very confusing. It got in the way of my sexual exploration and figuring out who I was for a long time,” she shares.

Ward says she began exploring adult entertainment after she married her husband Terry Baxter in 2006. She became the number one adult creator on Patreon shortly after launching her account, and a year and a half later, she entered professional pornographic productions. Baxter, she says, was “super supportive” of her decision to embrace her sexuality.

“Our sex life is so much better now,” she explains. “I mean, it’s always been nice and intimate and you know, how a wedding should be. I find that very sexy.”

As a porn artist, Ward shares that he feels less pressure about aging than he did when he worked in mainstream Hollywood.

“That was a scary prospect in the early 2000s, thinking, ‘Oh my God, you’re done. You’re going to be done very soon.’ So it was also like a race, but men could stay forever, which it was, and they did. And they still do,” she says.

“Hollywood is very tough on aging, but I felt less of that stigma in pornography,” she says. Although she was once told that “nobody wants to see you sexy unless you’re 25”, she found that wasn’t the case.

“Interestingly, the public doesn’t feel that much,” she explains. “I had more fans coming in when I was older and sexual… I was told no one would come and now I’ve had great success with it. Just part of this Hollywood machine – they want to keep you in a certain place in a certain way.” time.”

Ward wants people to know that it’s okay to take control of their lives, no matter where they started.

“It’s scary to chart your own path, but it’s the only way you can be happy. It doesn’t have to be porn. That’s my most scandalous side,” she says. “I didn’t change overnight. It’s about making conscious efforts and decisions over time to get to a place you want to be, embracing your truth. I want people to embrace their truth and just live as they want.” live and be. who they want to be. People are drawn to it.”

– Video produced by Olivia Schneider and edited by Rasiel Guevara

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